Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Where is my Prince?



My next B'day is around the corner and friends and family have their barrage of questions ready which a typical gal from North India is expected answer, But currently, I don’t seem to have any answer about them. They are asking me about my marriage. I still haven’t paid any serious attention to the subject so far, it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to get married.I too am eager to meet someone whose life without me would be a kind of an incomplete puzzle.But at this juncture of life,my priorities are different.  Being a big dreamer and ambitious sometimes, I want my career to be settled first. I want to make my parents proud. Sometimes I wish that i could have a magic wand by which i could stop time and compete against its racing nature.


Musing about my prince, I want to tell him that we are destined to meet. I have been waiting for you, Perhaps you too will be waiting for me. We will make great things together. I would not wish that you either be my follower or a leader. It is my earnest wish that we walk the beautiful journey of life together. I want you to have faith in me that I could be a wonder gal in your life who can set things straight. I can assure you that I will take care of you and your family and I do expect the same from you. I will make your house to home & I will take care of your cherished dreams. I will stand with you in each of your decisions that will lead to greater good. I will be there by you to protect you from each and every evil. I will be there by you when you would be feeling low. I will try my best to understand you,your circumstances which you would be going through. Feel free to express what you feel like. You can also cry in tough times. I can be your shoulder in times because I believe crying is also sometimes symbol of strength. Because it is only the strong who have the audacity to be vulnerable, to feel emotions life brings in eternity. I can assure that i would not be judging because I have experienced that each one is going through different toils which could be misjudged if looked superficially. I will be your strength. You would not feel let down because of me. I will try my best to make things in your life all perfect. And also you will discover how small things such as sunshine in September, wind in the hair after a good shampoo and sometimes just seeing character like Kungfu panda can make me feel amazed.

I love long drives, I love the thrill of speed. We will have a lot of adventures together.It would not make much difference if you couldn’t take me to parties and pub for recreation but i would really value for you being so kind to help someone in need. It would give me immense happiness to see the peace of being good in your eyes. I would not wish that you pick up a fight with someone who stare at me. What would be a great help is  if you would silently support me, stand by my side when I am struggling to take a stand. I don’t want you to wait for hours to buy flowers for me but what i would wish is that you stand beside me whenever I need a shoulder. I never expect that you make a no. of calls to me everyday but would wish that you would be patient enough to listen to me, to understand me, when i would be upset. I am not a gal who is a big fan of pink, but an walk in beautiful stary night can create magic for me. I want you to be mine, as my best buddy, my inspiration,my companion,my first and last dialled no.in my call log.
My dear prince, I want you to come and hold me, be my guide. It is with you I will become what i am meant to be!!
Love :)

Thursday, April 30, 2015

यकीन



कभी कभी मैं सोचता हूँ
यकीन कर लूँ तुम्हारी सारी बातों पर,तुम्हारे झूठे मुठे कसमों वादों पर..


कभी कभी मैं सोचता हूँ
देखना शुरू कर दूँ तुम्हारी आँखों से दुनिया,बोलना सुनना सीख जाऊं तुम्हारी बातों से...



कभी कभी मैं सोचता हूँ
सोचना शुरू कर दूँ तुम्हारी दी हुई हिदायतो से,तुम्हारी दी  हुई समझदारी से


शायद तुम्हारी तरह सोचते-समझते किसी दिन मैं भी हिस्सा हो जाउंगा तुम्हारा
तो तुम अपना सा मान कर अपना लोगे  तुम मुझे..
पर दिक्कत यह है कि कुछ मेरा है मुझ में
जो मेरे जैसा रहता है
मेरी तरह सोचता है..
मुझे सुनता हैजो तुमसे अलग है ज़रा सा


फिर मैं यही सोच कर रह जाता हूं..
शायद किसी दिन तुम खुद के अलावा किसी और को भी अपना लोगे

खुद के बोलने के बाद किसी और की चुप्पी को सुनना सीख जाओगे..
या फिर मेरे जाने के बाद शायद आये ख्याल तुम्हारे मन में
क्यों मैं बिना कुछ कहे चला जाता हूं..
क्यों मैं छत में अकेले बैठ कर तारे गिनता हूँ
क्यों मैं तुम्हारे आँखों में देख कर बात करता हूं..
क्यों मैं तुम्हारी बातों पर मुस्कुराता हूँ!








Friday, February 13, 2015

Adhuri Aas

आजकल जिंदगी के अजब दौर पर हूं
दिन  भर टूट कर सोता हूं.. नींद  के  लिए रात  अधुरी रह जाती हैं 
पैर  में पंख बांध कर शामिल तो  हूं, वख्त के साथ साथ , बस जो मेरे  साथ हैं , उनके  साथ रहने की गुजारिश अधूरी रह जाती हैं.. सुबह शाम आते जाते तो हैं सूरज चाँद, बस ढलते दिन के एक साथ   शाम गुज़ारने की ख्वाईश  अधूरी रह जाती हैं.
अनकही बातो का पुलिंदा हैं मेरे पास ,कोई मिलता नही अपना सा और  मन की बात होटों तक आकर अधूरी रह जाती हैं.
यूँ तो पहनने को ख़ूबसूरत लिबास हैं मेरे पास.. माँ  पास  होती तो मुस्करा देती नाज़ से.. बस इतनी सी आस अधूरी   रह जाती हैं।
 बंजारों सी हैं ज़िंदगी,  अंधरे के साथ घर में दाखिल होता हूं  काश कर रहा होता कोई मेरा भी इनज़ार  बस इतनी सी बात  पर मायूसी आखो के रस्ते चेहरे पर आ जाती हैं।




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